Life Lessons

I have had to make some really difficult decisions recently. Decision making isn't really my forte. I doubt myself. I second guess. I am easily swayed. And more than anything, I want the people I love to be happy. The realization has come that deciding not to make a decision is still a decision. The reality is it's a cop-out. It's the path that might please more people. And even if that's not the case, at least people won't be mad at me...
But, here's the thing about the non-decision: You reach a point when that won't work any more. Where, in my case, you have to stand up for something bigger than yourself. And today, I can see that when I am not watchful, my non-decisions cause me to be disobedient to my God. So, while each difficulty brings new hurt, each one reminds me that this decision had to be made. Even though each reminder hurts to acknowledge, it makes me even more resolute.
God is so faithful that He will grace my non-decisions and bring me what I need to stick to those firm decisions that I have made. Thank you Lord for life lessons in the midst of discourse.