Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Life Lessons

I have had to make some really difficult decisions recently. Decision making isn't really my forte. I doubt myself. I second guess. I am easily swayed. And more than anything, I want the people I love to be happy. The realization has come that deciding not to make a decision is still a decision. The reality is it's a cop-out. It's the path that might please more people. And even if that's not the case, at least people won't be mad at me...
But, here's the thing about the non-decision: You reach a point when that won't work any more. Where, in my case, you have to stand up for something bigger than yourself. And today, I can see that when I am not watchful, my non-decisions cause me to be disobedient to my God. So, while each difficulty brings new hurt, each one reminds me that this decision had to be made. Even though each reminder hurts to acknowledge, it makes me even more resolute.
God is so faithful that He will grace my non-decisions and bring me what I need to stick to those firm decisions that I have made. Thank you Lord for life lessons in the midst of discourse.



  1. I don't even know how to describe how proud I am of you. I continue to pray that this season draws you nearest to the One who loves you most.

    Walk with your head held high, dear friend. You are living well with Him!

    But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
    let them ever sing for joy.
    Spread your protection over them,
    that those who love your name may
    rejoice in you Psalm 5:11

  2. Our God will see you through this. His perfect will, will be accomplished. Keep your faith fed and peace will be yours. Regardless of anyones ideas and opinions (including mine) God will show you what you need to do and when you need to do it at the appropriate time. At a time, when he knows that you are ready to take the sword of the word and fight the battle the enemy is waging against you. Satan has no idea who he is messing with!! A Godly mother has no limits in her resolve. I love you and know that all things work for the good of those who love and unconditionally trust our God.

  3. I am continuing to pray for you and your family. I know you have friends who daily listen to and talk with you, but should you need another ear and shoulder mine are yours.